The first party I attended was both dazzling and intimidating.
There were a lot of people and everyone seemed mature here.
To make matters worse, the dress was tight and suffocating, and the wine I drank to calm me down completely ruined my condition.
'I feel dizzy.'.
When I couldn't stand properly and stumbled due to dizziness, someone approached me, grabbed my hand and lifted me up.
“You almost fell...your face is red, is there someone with you?”
I fell in love with the short kindness of him asking my name nicely, finding a place to rest me, sitting me down, and telling my companion to take care of me.
In the admiration caused by this brief act of kindness, I decided to marry, and my father granted my wish.
“Dad, I will do my best.”
A fleeting and exhilarating joy.
But when we met again, my dreams were shattered.
His eyes were so cold that I thought my heart would freeze.
“I heard that you want this marriage. I will be honest with you. I do not want this marriage. And I certainly have no intention of falling in love with you.”
Should I have backed out then? I was foolish, I was young, I knew admiration for the first time, and I did not know how to back away from it, even though he said that you had a girlfriend that did not suit his social status.
Her parents had told her not to worry about such things, it was the indiscretion of your youth.
I thought it was a whim because I'm the new bride. And that if I could get over this freak, I could be with him forever. But now I know. I was wrong.
When there is no going back in time to fix a wrong decision.
Every day is a tear and slow learning is a costly sin.
No matter how much I tried to harass her and get her out to protect my family, it was useless.
I'm the only one who's evil here.
If his mistress preferred money and did it to get money, I would have been able to separate her from my husband easily.
I was willing to sacrifice anything to save my marriage.
However, the stronger his approach to the mistress became, the more there was no way for my husband to love me.
I was continuing to be the villain.
Now I hate myself at that time.
I hate myself because I sacrificed all of my bitterness and my heart for that sweet moment that I was hoping for. I was hoping that he would whisper words of love to me and I would melt in his love.
That's why I chose eternal hell as my place.
I couldn't help but be an obstacle to their love.
I thought she was an obstacle to my love, but I realized that I was an obstacle to their love.
I just thought I was the main character in my world, but when I realized I was the villain in a third rate romance novel.
"You're pregnant. Congratulations ma'am." In the meantime.
I became pregnant. The moment I knew that, I was excited like a fool.
Maybe I can achieve the normal family I dreamed of.
He is a good person so even if he doesn't love me, he will love my child.
“If we have children…then, won’t he cherish me too.
And with our family? “.
A wish I had since childhood.
I wanted to have a warm and harmonious home.
Maybe that's why I fell in love with this little kindness from my first meeting with my husband.
He seemed like the perfect father or husband.
Because I grew up in a cold, authoritative family, I didn't want my children to grow up to be lonely children like me.
So I mustered up the courage. “Bern, let's talk.” I told my husband about the pregnancy. “I have a child.” A frown appeared on his hardened face.
Those resentful eyes that will not relent no matter what happens.
But if I don't tolerate it, my child will not be happy.
Let us bow down a little, humble our pride a little, and beg Him to come back.
If we could build a happy family with that, I could do anything for it.
“I know. You don’t love me but even if you can’t be a good husband, if you can be a good father, I can handle it. That can only do so much.”
Maybe we will be a serious couple and have a love relationship.
I just couldn't get those words out of my mouth.
I thought I would sacrifice my dignity because my purpose was already so deep.
Maybe that was why I couldn't completely bend myself. Was that a bad thing?.
When I received the news that came from him, I collapsed from bleeding.
The story of the collapse of my marriage.
My husband chose it without hesitation.
As I tried to run to catch my husband.
I couldn't stand the sharp pain in my stomach and collapsed.
"I should have rested because my body was so weak in the first place, but the problem was that I couldn't because I was anxious. It must have been hard for the child to bear because my mental illness was eating away at his body."
I don't know what kind of spirit was in my child's body.
When I gained control of my body, my dissatisfaction escalated.
If there had not been that woman who destroyed my life...!.
Did you say that my husband's lover's name is Rina? She ran to the little villa my husband had prepared for her.
In the past, I tried not to meet her until the end.
I tried to use servants only to harass her.
It looked like I would be very miserable if I fell to the point of fighting with a Muggle woman.
But now, I have nothing left: no husband, no children, no pride.
There was nothing to be afraid of. A modest gate with silver bars, groomed roses intertwined between them. Beautiful white swing chair in the garden. Small but beautiful palace. A house like Raina. When the door opened and I walked out, I lost all my pride and dignity.
"My child died because of you! My marriage is ruined because of you! Because of you, because of you!"
I slapped her on the cheek hard, and Rena covered her cheek with a stunned expression and froze. Her eyes widened in confusion as if she had noticed something. Tears welled up in her eyes as she looked at me with a trembling look.
I couldn't tell if it was from pain or guilt, but my heart didn't feel better. “My child is dead, so why are you alive?” The moment I raised my hand to hit her again, something hit my cheek so hard that I could see nothing but white, and with a sharp pain in my cheek, I fell on the doorstep.
Byrne came running in surprise.
Rena also ran over and asked with trembling pink lips."Are you well?" Then she turned and spoke while screaming. “Bern! How could this happen! How could you hit her on the cheeks hard enough to make her come down the stairs... She is your wife...!” Crocodile tears.
Hypocrisy deception.
So I laughed.
I felt like crying, but I couldn't help but feel like crying in front of this woman and this man.
Instead of crying, I stared at her and shouted at her."Don't pretend to be worried. You ruined my life more than anyone else. Would it have been nice for you to take someone else's husband?"
And pretend to be such a good mistress? Were you so happy to take my baby's father in because he loves you? “.
It was fortunate that I didn't cry.
I was about to cry, but I couldn't help but cry.
“…You are the worst with an angelic face, as if you were cute. You are the worst.” At least I wanted to see her distorted face.
But instead of hating me, she looked at me with a shocked face. I staggered backwards.
Tears suddenly burst into her stupidly open eyes.. “I, I…I didn’t know I would….” She froze at the very ridiculous words.
"You didn't know...? You don't know anything? A fire broke out inside me."
Rena muttered again as if she was stuttering. “Sorry... But, this time I will really break up with him... “I stared at Rena with trembling lips, unable to move my mouth out of futility and anger.
Tears welled in Rena's eyes as she looked at me, then flowed.
Her face reflects that of a miserable woman with disheveled hair and red cheeks. She covered her face with both hands in front of me. And like that dove shedding tears on her weak face. “I just love Bern, I want to be with him...”
Then, with her trembling hand, she grabbed Bernard's collar, buried her face, and sobbed.
Bernard murmured that he was fine and patted her back with his hand. “Rena, wait a minute. I thought it would be okay to talk to her just for a moment... “.
His dandelion-like yellow eyes filled with compassion cried. His face looked like he was injured. “That was not my intention. Sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. Sorry." Rena looked away as if my face was scary to see.
Then I turned to my husband. “Sorry. Bernard. But trust me. I didn't really know... It was just that I was greedy. No, I was completely wrong. “I’m leaving now so please don’t hate me.”
Her pink lips moved to sing softly.
Then she hurriedly got up, turned around, and went inside.
It was such a hasty movement from her that she looked like she would leave at any moment. At these words, my husband stepped back with a shocked face. His face twisted. “Raina, what are you talking about? Why are you the bad one, the bad one is me! “.
He quickly hugged Rena by the shoulder and whispered urgently."You're not guilty of anything. If there is sin, it's all my fault. It's my fault that I kept clinging to you.
You were the one who was suffering all this time and you were smiling despite your sadness so I thought you were fine. So don’t blame yourself, don’t even say that scary thing about leaving again.”
At the same time he looked at me. Gray-blue eyes pierced me with spear-like fury. It was terrifying, as if my heart had been cut off.
I should have cried, but I couldn't. That was miserable.
“Your child is dead. You were the cause of my child’s death but how can you not care and look at me like that...” At that time, my husband turned his eyes away from me. The moment his blue eyes were filled with coldness, when he looked at her once, his expression quickly turned affectionate and worried. It was like changing from a dead being to a living being. “Raina, this is not your fault. Don’t listen to her. There is no reason for you to suffer or leave. Are you okay? It’s not your fault. Please raise your head and look at me.”
Why do you say that there must be the father of my child.
He is the father of the child who died because of him. “Ah. Ah…..” There was a whistle in my ears.
I lost the strength in my body.
Desperation grabbed me and pulled me to the ground. He continued to deny that she was the reason my child died in front of me.
I thought she was cheating on my husband for some time.
And if you get rid of them, if you get out of our lives, everything will return to normal.
Because I could not live without believing that justice triumphs, as in every story.
The stories I knew were always like this.
I'm his wife and Raina is just a secret lover.
So I thought everything would eventually fall back into place.
But suddenly I realized.
Why did I take this for granted?.
Rena was sobbing and my husband hugged her with a pained face.
I muttered words desperately.
The picture was clear now.
There is a woman crying hard and trembling, and a man begging that woman to stop crying with helpless eyes.
Time passed slowly or differently, as if I were a complete stranger standing among them, as if I were transparent.
It was as if time had frozen and this is when they came back alive in each other's arms.
I realize now that I cannot maintain my marriage.
The happy marriage she dreamed of was impossible.
My belief was completely wrong.
Because for them, the main characters are these two people.